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finally my sweet 18th ended after enduring happiness,sadness ,challenging along this long journey of 2008..here comes to my 19th!!yea 19th march 2009,19th birthday..quite a nice no , is n’t it?haha..once again, i m grateful that i have passed1 more year..as i always say, ‘life jus once, we don know how many celebration that we can hv,cos to grow up as an adult, its really not an easy task!’ ..i think thats the reason i appreciate a lot ev single birthday celebration that i hv..wats so special abt this year is tat most prob its my las bday celebration in msia b4 flying to aus.kinda sad..plus its the first tim i celebrated it wit all my new friends in kl..

bcos of my bday, i met with teck xin who i never c for ages..haha.thanks so muc for the secret receipe”s cake..really hv a very wonderful session of “chat n gossip” wit u though v hv been lost contact wit each other for so long..i lik ur words’ we dun hv any cold moment while chatting’..haha..i think thats the true friendship..u r stil so cute n humourous..i wil remember the promise..hopefully we can achieve it..

next, of course my housemates’s turn to celebrate for  me. i can sense the weird reactions form u guys since sharp at 12..cos u all r lik purposely pretending nt to wish me..haha..its realy a surprise for me to c other frens came to the unit at night to hv the celebration wit me.cos i jus expect to hv the celebration wit al the housemates..so its really surprising.thanks so muc for those present n the cake..n of course the presents and cards..i appreaciate it so muc..as i said, it might b the first n las ever bday celeb that i can hv wit u guys..cs we might be separating to our own path of life nex year..so really thanks so muc!i hv fun that night.

for the others friends especially in ti, thanks for stil remember my big day..hah.this is the time to test whether i m still in ur heart o nt..haha..d first 1 of course goes to u , yche~who purposely called from aus sharp at 12(aus time)jus to wish me. i m looking forward to ur present from aus..stil haven got it..its really touching to knw u did post me smth from so far, u r d most sincere true fren that i hv in my life.for my 3min gang, thanks too especially yt,joseph,mjing,tpang ybin etc..i miss al those memorable bday celebration wit u guys esp las yr..bt dunno y , it seems that this yr most of my frens lik to give las minute(11.59) wish ..haha..also, i m really happy to get a bday msg from mrs tan..i dun expect at all..haha..thanks..n of course there is also some disappointment towards some ppl esp those u expect the most,,it turns up to be d most disappointing1..haha

n lastly, the presents that i lik the most is from my cousin n bro!!thanks for the cows..i dun expect it especially from my bro..really very cute..i wil bring one of them to australia nex time…especially when i feel homesick!!thanks….i love u all..

20mac 2009..its has been 2 years since u left us..time flies!yet the pain is stil there inside my heart..unhealed.天使is the song that i listen always as a remisnisce to u ..it gives me strength n inspiration to move to overcome all the obstacles as if u r jus bside me , giving me mentally support..how gd if i can tell u face to face that i managed to secure a scholarship n currently doin my first choice course..i wil be studying abroad..how gd if i could…really…i make it~~i knw u wil be proud of me.the oncoming challenges is awaiting me.i wil continue to work hard to achieve my final destination.. i wil be fine ..永远怀念您，刘老师..

yinshia^^

its now 1am on31st DeC 2008.i shud have slept but instead get out from my room and decided to blog here. finally i come to the end of this year.jus wish to record all the things that i hv experienced throughout this year.

HAPPIEST>>1
To be qualified as esther”s happiest event in 2008, its no doubt joining 2008 children camp.Through this camp, i know a lot of good buddies in my life especially gan,siewling n peiwen. haha..before that , we are lik strangers when seeing each other in the library.but surprisingly our friendship get strengthened till now after the meaningful children camp!haha..of course, idid knw a lot of other pbhp frenz too which highlighted my life.we hv gone through ipoh trip, teluk batik trip, steamboat, cycling,sawah padi trip, gua tempurung trip, sungkai trip etc.those happy n memorable moments wil keep inside my heart forever n i appreciate our friendship very muc. i jus hope no matter how, we can still keep in touch..haha
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my spm result. though its nt the perfect1, i m contented as i get wat i wish at las.my hard work is paid off finally.i m proud of myself. along this 18 years, i hv done my bes in my academic n i hv no regret!i really wanna thank those who give me deepest support during exam period when i need motivation the most.without u guys, i wont be succesful. now wat i wish hv been achieved, so i got to put more effort to realise my nex dream! i knw the process is hard n overwhelmed with tonnes of challenges. but i got no choice.i hv chosen the path..i got to work hard!

SORROW PART>>
yea..its no doubt the most sorrow part..it keeps haunting me till now. i got cheated!i give whatever i can n do whatever u lik jus to strenghten our friendship!i thought u value it as wat i do.but i jus kept overwhelmed by disappointment!i keep telling myself to forgive n i did it. and it ended to hurt me more!i m lik a fool! u give me the happiest memory n the most sorrow part, did u ever know?u wont knw forever cos i never track any sadness on ur face.nw u r lik a liar to me! anyway, thanks for stepping into my life n give me this lesson. start from 2009, u r depleted from my memory, frenz..

APOLOGIZE>>
To my dearest family, i always feel sorry to them especially my grandma n mother, i never play my role as a good granddaughter n daughter. whenever i come bac, i keep hanging around wit my friends n never take time to chat wit u all..i m sorry..i love u! nobody can ever take over ur place!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION>>
-In my study , i wish to achieve my target n get the entrance to my dream University
-i wish to control my bad tempered n always have a good relationship with my family n friends
-jus lik the birthday wish , the third 1 is always kept inside the heart..haha..shuuuu…

whatever had passed, i wish to let it go n have a good start in the year 2009!gambahteh , YinSHia!!

My 18^th birthday ..Deep inside my heart I always hope to have a very very memorable 18^th birthday ..cos 4 me , its really not easy to live 4 so long time ..i mean from an infant to an adult ( 18 should be considered s an adult ba) …throughout the life process, 4 sure we face a lot of challenges..sorrow and triumphant..there”s laughter and tears ..think deeply, how many 18 years can we have throughout our lives  ??perhaps just once … yea..thats y I m so appreciate to hv a memorable and wonderful 18^th birthday with all my dear frens …It began with …..

“ are u at home now? Can u come out ?” I received a call from siew ling ..its about 9 plus at night on 18.3.2008..before that when I went to mei jing house , bee xuan asked me that had siew ling come to my house? I felt so stranged ..haha..then after I answered siew ling “ call , I was thinking maybe she was going to give me a surprise ba..haha.. just when I stepped out from my door , I was so shocked to see siew ling , gan , pei wen , kai chur , and yee yong were standing outside my house….”happy birthday ,,,happy birthday ,,happy birthday …”I was really very shocked..s i never expect that

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wen n kai chur would celebrate with me too..they brought a big box of present to me and called me to tear it off quickly to see what is it act..3…2….1…hahah.its a very big photo frame with all the pictures that we snapped during the childen camp..now whenever I saw the photo frame , a lot of memories came into my mind..we sang , we danced , we chat , we got scolded during the meeting, we played the games, we snapped photo together crazily!! Its so fun man!!after that of course I hv to do something as an appreciation to them .haha..we went to blue roof there to eat lok lok..its the first time I celebrated my birthday eve..reali..and its with my pbhp frens..we chat so loudly!!haha..until the ppl eating beside us also cant tahan ?!!still remember when I said the “bikini” word..i was so so so pai seh lar..but its me..when I feel high I cant control myself..wil speak loudly..haha..pang yi finally came down to hv a drink too with us..haha..though he is not used to eating supper..frankly, I feel really lucky to know u guys especially siew ling , gan ,

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wen , kai chur , siew mun …etc(pbhp frens)..thanks to sl, gan , pw, kc , sm, bee xuan , kooi ling n of course jay sern 4 the photo frame.though it’s a simple present , but I like it the most..cos I know u guys paid a lot of effort to think of this present especially siew ling n jay sern ..xing fu sai lar!!haha..

When the clock started to show 12 ..haha..i started to receive the wishing messages non stop..haha..this is the first time I received so much wishes from all my frens ..i m really glad..surprisingly, yau tzuen came to my house !!its already 12 plus leh..haha..purposely came to wish me happy birthday,,,thanks ya..and the most touching birthday msg is from weng lee ( my best fren) I was really really surprised n shocked that this guy would write so touching msg to me!!i hv knowned him so many years..normally he wont be lik that..haha..perhaps we are going to depart soon..we start to appreciate each other ..i m really touched that time..and so coincident I was listening to “tian shi “ from My FM that time..i dropped my tears…………….i m touched plus that something private happened to me on thay day too…that’s a very surprised, touched n complicated birthday eve for me …

19.3.2008…..gan n sling were fetching me to school to settle my scholarship thing..i was really appreciate that they r so willing to help me..i can feel their sincere heart..then we went to the ns site ..havin breakfast,buying ice cream 4 the camp…after busy 4 the whole morning , its time 4 me to go bac le s I still need to settle my scholarship thing..guess what!! Gan n sling were purposely fetching me to buy 2 small cakes ,,they said that without cakes its really not a birthday..yaya..i totally agree with it..haha..thats y my presents to kx n weng lee were cakes too..haha..then we celebrated at sling house..though its just 2 small cakes but its really enough 4 me..though there”S no birthday song its just enough for me,,s I can feel u guys sincere heart to celebrate my birthday..this is the first time I celebrated with my seniors where we don’t know each other well before the camp…Our friendship is strengthened during the camp and it will never fade!! Promise..Once again I really wanna express my gratitude to siew ling n gan ..u guys have helped me a lot n tried to cheer me up whenever I m overwhelmed with the difficulties..though I dun really express it out but deep inside my heart I do appreciate what u o hv done 4 me ..thanks so much……………………………………

In the evening, after I hv settled all my stuffs, it’s the time to celebrate with my best fren lo..haha..so surprisingly, PHON PHON weng lee is coming dy wo…normally I must called him few times to confirm whether he is comin o not de,,but this time different..he reached my house automatically..haha..we celebrated at tea corner there..n without my expectation he was bringing a cake too..oh my god..why he became so good liao de?such word came into my mind..haha..must be because I bought him a cake during his birthday,,haha…we had our dinner outside tea corner there..its so comfortable..cooling weather ..though he is laughed by the waitress there 4 buying such small cakes but its ok…choi r?haha .. I m so glad..we snapped photos..saying cold jokes..haha…throughout my life I m so happy n lucky to have a best fren where we can be together comfortably ..without any bad feelings towards each other..throughout our lives  its really not easy to hv such a good fren where we no need to contact with each other so frequently yet we still can hold a very close relationship..i m really lucky..you wil be my best fren 4va..and I wil remember wat u hv wrote in the wishing msg,,thanks…sincerely from my heart..

Just an hour lik that, weng lee had to fetch me home le..haha..cos there”s will b a surprise from my buddies..haha..i really dunno wat r they o goin to do.mei jing just asked me dun go out..thats y I can guess that mayb they o are coming to my house to celebrate..just reaching my house. I could see yau tzuen”s car was dy outside my house//but!!! He was sleeping in the car  lar..so I just went inside my house to put all my things first..then when I m goin to walk out from my house to see whether yt was still I the car o not , suddenly ei….jay sern wo …then all the gangs came out dy..”happy birthday….haha..mei jing yt tai pang shu jie

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syin wendy n ying bin…they were bringing kfc to my house!!haha…its quite surprised to see they o ..i never expect that they o r there just when I stepped out from my house..haha..then they just came to my room and enjoy their dinner..haha..we sang birthday song …n then ,,haha..of course snapped photo crazily lar.my favourite wat..guess what!! They wrote “mrs cockroach” on the cake there..jsern “s idea..haha…unexpected!!not bad not bad..then is the turn to tear off the present”s wrapping paper.Oh my God!! Mei jing n wendy bought me photo frames also..so coincident!!haha..then a crystal apple from yi syian …n lastly the the gift from sjie ytzuen ybin n jsern..just when I opened the box I saw a very very very old style watch..(power rangers1)..i was quite shocked..haha..lucikly there”S still a new watch behind there!!how dare r they if they just give me that old style watch..according to ybin its his watch since he is in primary school…more than 10 years dy I guess!!now I hv to keep it for him…haha.how clever are they!!!from wat I know they o hv spent lots of time searching 4 a gift 4 me especially jsern ba..thx..its quite a special gift4 me..cos I din wear watch 4 more than 5 years dy .haha..after that is our game session…I reali dunno how to desribe the tiring but exciting game….making o of us so tired yet so enjoyed..haha..jsern n psyin got the punishment..dance gang guan wu!!!!woooo!!!!!!so funny..haaha..then is the camp game suggested by me..haha,,that’s really fun…the fat tai pang n shu jie!!haha..making us who in the same group wit them failed to complete the game..haha..sweat a lot after the game leh …reali reali fun…

This year is really the most unforgettable bday that I ever hv..yea 18^th bday,,,thanks u guys 4 makin my dream to be realistic,,,though recently I do admit that I hv neglected some of my frens since I m busy doing my tings..i admit!!and u o are still w;;ing to waste so much time n money to plan my bday..i m really sorry 4 that even to my family..especially to my grandma..she is sick on my birthday..n I cant even express more concern to her…I m sorry …once again I really wanna express my greatest gratitude to all my dear frens who are celebrating bday with me ..gan and sling where I dun expect the most..really glad to know u 2 in the camp..thx2 weng lee 4

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bday cake ya..thx to all my buddies 4 makin a surprise bday party 4 me especially mei jing n jay sern who are trying their best to plan it though they r busy too..i appreaciate it..thanks thanks thanks..thanks god 4 letting me to know o of them .perhaps this is the most valuable present I hv this year…

Perhaps next year I wont b able to celebrate with u o le..its time 4 us to depart soon …but I will remember it forever in my heart….forever and eva…

20.3.2008

刘老师，你已经离开了我们一年了。好想好想告诉你我没忘了你。。也好想好想告诉你我的成绩。。虽然不是最完美的成绩，但我已经尽力了。 相信你也会以我为荣吧。 。未来的路真的真得很迷茫， 但我为了我的将来，我会努力奋斗。。

最近几天一从梦中惊醒就很难再入睡了。。因为我的脑海中都在想着我的未来去向，想着即将和朋友们分离的不舍，想着那天难忘的小学party..

昨天在武刚家看回我们录的party影片时，真的笑到肚子痛，当然也有一些画面是很感动的。其实真的很感谢永立，武刚和永新。要不是他们的帮忙，party可能真的搞不成。我知道武刚一定会看我的blog的，读到这边时一定爽死你咯。哈哈。回想起那天去扫货时，还满好笑的。为了迎合我提议的红色party,还要特地陪武刚去买红色衣服。因为他体型的关系，买的过程都一直给我和永立笑，不好意思啦。哈哈哈哈。。到了永立家，我就忙着吹气球了。真的好久没吹了，有点生疏!不知道是不是因为气球有粉的关系，搞到我过后肚子痛!!真衰!然后我们就忙着出鬼主意想游戏的惩罚了。哈哈。。谈着谈着，笑着笑着，过后我才发现原来我们三个都是姓黄的，超巧的。

终于终于陈老师看完她的连续剧了，party正式开始了!HooRaY!!一进门，teacher就开始了认人环节。erm..wat yin r??dont tell me!!let me think..said by teacher..laughter all around..过后就是吃东西的时间了!超饿的，因为只吃了早餐。哈哈。边吃边笑，看看可以趁机会踩人没有!因为坐到很远的关系，老师在讲什么都听不到。所以叻，我们都很会做人，搬着椅子前去八一八。。原来在讲着人生道理。哈哈。。其实武刚说得满对的，应该多谈天，我不应该这么快提议玩游戏的。。因为过后都没有机会聊了。满可惜的。。可是那时美君又催我。。哎。。真对不起。。满遗憾的一幕。。really sorry

不过其实那游戏也满好玩好笑的嘛，让我们大家有亲密接触的一次。哈哈哈。。就是用嘴巴传牙签了。超刺激的。哈哈。看到一些男女在传时的尴尬神情，真是笑死我们了。可惜老师没参与。。最爆笑的应该还是堡颖吧!真是让我大开眼界，她。。她。她竟然跳舞时酱爆笑!oh my god!!然后就到我的满清十大酷刑，其实那惩罚也没怎样而已咯。。过后的惩罚有扮永立啦、吃hotdog、扮周杰伦啦、唱歌啦!!i was really enjoyed that moment!!突然大家都down了，老师说要回了!才十点罢了哦!!也许是我们的游戏冷落了他们吧。。真的好down!!

过后就赶快切蛋糕仪式了。谢谢陈老师所提供的蛋糕叻!突然韵旖一句:”我们一起唱儿童节歌吧!”what a brilliant idea!!”今天是儿童节，啦啦啦，我们大家多快活。。。。”过后我真的不是很会唱了，毕竟已经五年没唱了。连老师都被我们这个鬼主意给吓倒了，哈哈!!好温馨，真的真的!!过后做么?当然是切蛋糕啦!然后就大合照了!!本来想说大家都穿红衣，拍起照来时一定perfect!!后来才知道原来我忘了通知宾丙和伟浩。haiz..my fault again!!为了不让老师先走，我们都轮流要跟老师合照。。哈哈!!就这样又拖了一些时间。。嘻嘻。。然后又是开香槟的时候了。。大家七手八脚地开香槟。。哈哈。。我竟然喷到佩珍他们，真的不是故意的..pai seh ..haha

当大家都沉醉在欢乐的时光时，突然电脑播着张学友的祝福。。哇，好悲啊!幸亏赶快换了童话，不然我想我会哭咯!unexpected,我们大家竟然一起唱了起来。。超感动的moment!”我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使，张开双手变成翅膀守护你，你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里，幸福和快乐是结局。。。。。”真的不懂怎样形容，我那时真的觉得很难的、很感动、很温馨。多么想时间可以暂时停顿起来!看回video时，武刚说陈老师那时眼泛泪光，可是又好像是video camera的问题。。不懂叻!。。。。。。童话播完了，接下来的是”今天你要嫁给我”。。暖和了悲伤的气氛!!这次老师真的要回了，好不舍得。欢乐的时光怎么这么快哦!老师逐个逐个拥抱我们，除了男士们。。哈哈。。永新竟然号召他们排队要和老师拥抱，那个画面就好像老鹰捉小鸡。。so funny man!哈哈。后来还是不得逞!哈哈。。谁叫你们是BOY!!blek….

我们这班小鬼就跟着走出门外欢送老师，好好笑!!尤其是美君那时说的那句”散会咯”。。haiz….老师走了，我们有down了。。一些人也跟着回了。。剩下我们几个。。as i always think ,without teacher , the gathering really will hit a snag!!收拾了一下子后，我们几个继续玩踩气球游戏。本来想说大家一起玩一pair pair的，然后先pakat踩破老师的气球先的!哈哈，，好坏!!可是。。。。nvm la…到了最后最后，真的没有expect到 the party will be ended like this ..only few of us know!!secret!!幸亏过后雨过天晴了!!本来还想说一起聊聊到两点的，怎知道。。。。。。。。。haiz..不用紧啦，反正那时也满好笑的，对不对啊?武刚!!只是我成了牺牲品!!哼!!!。。。。

过了这次，不知道几时可以再一次聚集在一起了。。颖宾所说的明年今日?美君说的五年?还是每一年?十年?二十年?还是没有机会了?真的不懂!!不过这次也满可惜的，彦颖，韵恬，舒凌，依泯，建将，国鸿等都不能来。。不然可能更好玩吧!其实突然会想写这个blog，是因为我想把每一刻都记录起来，我怕我会忘了。。将来再读时，可能会笑到肚子痛，也可能会读到流泪。。不懂叻!!
将来的事谁懂呢?!无论如何，我真的过了一个难忘的party,我希望你们也是，老师也是。。。。。。。。。
期待还会有下一次的gathering 吧!!6M roX!!??

银霞。。。。

终于考完试了!!真的真的松了很大的一口气。。我终于可以暂时翱翔，做我想做的事情了。

来到了人生的第十七个年头，真的好不容易啊!有时，会很无意识地问自己到底这十七年是自己想要过的生活吗?我都没有想很久，因为我知道我梦想的童年到少年不是这样的。最近从电视上看过一句很有意思的名句:”人都只会看自己没有的，却从来没发现到自己所拥有的。”好真的一句话啊，因为我就是酱的人。我梦想的，往往都和现实相反。都说是梦想咯!人生就只有这么一次，所以我将来的生活就真的完完全全掌握在自己手中了!好奇怪噢，当自己终于能决定自己想要的生活时，反而很向往不用自己做决定的日子。开学了，就上学咯，管你情不情愿。可是，过了今年，我想要上学都不能了。我得决定我人生的去向了!

今年2007年，是我觉得最特别的一年。因为我真的学会了，看透了很多人情世故。今年的新年最特别，因为一夥儿骑着摩多一家一家地去拜年!好怀念!过了自己很期待的生日后，却有体会了生离死别的悲伤，痛苦和不舍。。这是我第一次尝试到犹如亲人离去的痛苦。我知道，我明白人都必须经历这些，只是没想到会是提拔我的老师。不知不觉，都已经过了九个月了。”天使”这首歌，每次听到我都会想起你。因为我觉得真的是送给你的一首感人肺腑的歌。

那时又发生了一些很不愉快的事情，真的令我看透了人自私自力，幸灾乐祸，充满著报复的恶面孔。那时的日子真的过得很黑暗，接踵而来的挫折令我身心疲惫。真的很恶心，让人极恨透!!我学会了凡事靠自己。只要每一天都过得对得起自己良心就好了。问心无愧嘛!可能人生就是要这样吧，偶尔让你舔舔苦涩的滋味。

这一年对我来说可以说是为了SPM而活的。常常埋头苦读，我也很累啊!尤其是这几个月!可是又能怎样。说真的，我很怕领成绩那一天。很多事都难于意料，我很怕自己会失望。自己考得怎样，自己知道!不过我真的很认同”烧饼”跟我说的那句话–let the god decide the rest!!或许这是我可以从中获得一些安慰的一句话吧。哈哈。。读书读到流泪、读到自己不知道在读什么、读到头脑要爆、读到三更半夜，这种生活都挨过去了!雨后都会天晴。哈哈。希望天晴后都能看到彩虹吧!还记得，SPM前夕，真的感受到一些关怀和支持。。其中Pn.Low Boon Choo 对我说的话和写给我的留言都让我觉得很感动。我知道老师都真的在尝试令我放松，听得我眼眶都红了。miss sor too!!陈老师发给我的信息也都让我更加有力量地去应付考试。奕慈和凯旋的祝福都让我的心情平复很多。。我真的觉得很感激，自己真的很幸运。。a very sincere appreciation from me though i know i may make you all disappointed..

毕业了，和朋友也要分离了。记得在学校的最后几天，突然很有感触而发了我的肺腑之言给几位朋友。你们啊，受到我信息的人都要珍惜那封属于我内心的信息啊!最近都一直听到朋友说去这里，去那里的话。。有云顶啦，新加坡啦，吉隆坡啦，甚至还有new zealand!! WOW , so syok man!!我叻，还不确定，新加坡一直都是我的首选，不过。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我很想离开安顺，自己在外闯一闯，真的很想叻!即使跌倒也心甘情愿，只是很不舍的我的阿嬷。。哈哈。BUDDIES，珍重啦,YOU ALL ARE IN MY HEART FOREVER..

今天和永新，武刚，永立在讨论party时突然讲了些小学的趣事，好温馨好开心。武刚说小学的礼堂被拆了，一听到，突然很辛酸很不舍。给了我最甜蜜时光的小学就这样被拆了，好遗憾没在礼堂拍过照片呢!我一直都觉得和小学的朋友相处时是最舒服的!所以满期待拜五的小学party!!是该狂欢的时候了吧!哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。frenz 4ever is wat v r !!

11.06pm(listening “my love will get you home”)super touched song by christine class..go and listen to it ..you will never regret

6。12。2007
霞霞

生日快乐，我最敬爱的刘老师。。。

霞霞10-10-2007

Hoooo…My last scrabble journey finally ended…I am sad indeed..start from the very beginning of the journey , I had a strong feeling…I wish to record every moment during the journey..what did I do to achieve that wish?haha.. I snapped photo with them non-stop.. they just had to follow my instructions..”yee sing, fast ..go there catch photo!! Kai xuan,want to take photo or not!! Kar hee leng cai , faster come and take photo !!”hhaha…those words can be heard throughout those two days.. what can do..i am a sentimental person.. I like to keep those memorable moments since it was my last scrabble journey.. Those two days, we laughed non-stop, faced our competition seriously ,played hardly,worried together, saying cold jokes together, playing crazily,walking “tirely” to the bus station like a gang of mad people,teasing each other….i will remember it always.. start from this second , I don’t know whether I will still play scrabble or not..but one thing for sure is I wont play it so frequent ady..feel quite sad about it..

SCRABBLE has added hues to my secondary school life..without it , my life is just as dull as a plain paper..really!! thanks scrabble..because of you I get to know a lot of good buddies..Yee Che , Teck Xin , Kai Yang, Churn Pei, Mei Wah , Ying Bin , Yee Sing , Boon Jin , Yi Hong , Gabriel , Kar Hee and of course Kai Xuan..because of scrabble I own a good didi..kx, you did play an important role in my secondary school life..thanks for the everything you did for me..i am touched indeed..although sometime you did make me annoying but is ok.. I m sure you are frustrated with me sometimes also..the trip was wonderful..we even bought a pink handbag for miss michelle!! Haha…

For the future scrabble teams , I wish you all can be more GENG than SPEC..haha..dont say that its impossible..it will become a reality one day.. I guarantee..THANKS SCRABBLE!! LOVE IT!!!

UNKNKOWN AND UNTITILED ROX!!!!

ESther… ex-scrabblers(unknown)

昨天刚刚和朋友们庆祝我十七岁生日。。。今天却让我彻底崩溃。。我最敬爱的刘秀美老师很不幸的于2002年3月20日逝世了。。。

早上的天空已显得格外异样。。老是下着毛毛雨。我想肯定是连老天爷也为老师的英年早逝而难过地掉泪了。。下午放学时，妈妈对我说的第一句话是 ” 刘老师去世了”。。我当时没有很大的反应。。妈妈说着说着，我终于在回家的路上哭了。。为什么??!! 有谁能给我一个答案??我第一时间通知老师那班学生。。在电话中，眼泪很不听话的一颗接着一颗掉下来了。。我很匆忙地把午饭吃了。。就和朋友赶往她家。。等待朋友的当儿，我的心情很忐忑 ， 我不懂应该以怎样的心情面对。。一路前往老师的家中，我很紧张 ， ，很害怕。。以前都常常路过的道路，今天却是向老师作最后的道别了。。。我很坏， 很自私， 自从上了中学后，我再也没去老师家探望她了。。每次都说新年要去找老师， 可是每次都不把它当成一回事。。老师 ， 真的很对不起。。

到了老师家，我的鞋又坏了。我只好赤脚走进去。。一\进去，我真的无法控制情绪，眼眶都红了。老师的孩子-友鹏站在棺木旁凝望着。拿着香点燃时，我的手不停的抖。以前斗没有真正向老师道谢，谢谢她把我教成如此博学多才。这次的谢谢却是最后一次了。。如果\别人说黄银霞很厉害很聪明，那一半的功劳都归功于刘老师。是她把我的基础打得如此稳固。从小学一年级补到六年级，要不是老师的用心良苦，黄银霞这个名字不可能常出现在成绩荣誉榜上。。看着老师遗容的那一刻是很平静，真诚的。。老师， 你还是很美。!!! 是真的哦!!

老师的一些家属前来安慰我们，也很高兴我们还记得她。。我只想说这是身为学生的责任。。况且到了这个时候， 我也只能贡献那么一点点的心意罢了。。好的老师永远都会被学生铭记在心。。

老师，你以前每次都叫我霞霞的，还记的吗?那时感觉好亲切噢。。从你口中传出来的声音是多么的好听。。你对我的好都我会永远铭记在心的。。我还记得有一次你补习完毕过后，偷偷把参考书递给我和韵恬。。你为了让我们在UPSR考取好成绩， 特地掏钱买书给我们。。可能对你来说没什么，但是我好想说那一刻 我是真的很感动的。。还有，你以前为了鼓励我们，都会买小礼物给我们。。这六年， 我也收了不少。。当时年幼无知的我曾经为了礼物而欺骗你，擅自偷改分数，我想尼应该一早就试穿了，只是没有追究。。你的好意 ，我都懂。在小学时期，应该是你最常鞭打我了。。那时觉得好没自尊噢，不过其实你都是为我好!!我懂的。。小学时都很享受你的补习班，因为你都很关心我。。虽然有一阵子我很生气你对我的不信任。。不过最后你还是为我好的，刺激我努力奋斗。。有好多好多回忆， 现在想起会决得好好笑。。老师，你真的很坚强。。虽然好多老师误会你，可是你在我心目中永远是最棒的。。我真的很难过。。。为什么生命酱脆弱。。。我很自责，为什么上次看见你却没上前叫你。。对不起

老师， 你方心。。友鹏都很懂事。。我们都何他聊了很多。。虽然他会在近期很不习惯，不过他一定会和你一样酱坚强的。。听他述说将来没有你的\日子时，我们都哭了。。虽然一直安慰他说是天意，可是就连我自己也无法接受， 何况是他呢?我们将来都会在课业上尽量帮助他，以免辜负你对他的期望。。你还来不及实现的愿望，友鹏一定会替你实现的。。他还播了你唱歌的一小段呢!!真的很好听。。。
现在又下雨了。。。。。。。。老师 真的很舍不得你。。我在也没有机会很自豪的告诉你我的成绩了。。一切都将成为幻影。。我答应你 会好好努力来应付SPM的。。

老师，\一路好走。。愿你在天堂过得更精彩。。别想把我给忘了。。。。谢谢你， 刘老师!!!!

霞霞。。。

still one hour more for more birthday to come..i can sense the excitement already..haha..instead this is the year that i expect lots to have a great celebration with all my friends..i have just received the first present..deng deng deng deng…its from my best old friend WENG LEE..thanks a lot.. then just now yau tzuen called me and said that he is the one to call that gang of friends to buy present for me!!! a bit sad when heard about that actually..because sounds that they all are not willing to buy..but i understand it. perhaps our friendship is stil not as deep as i thought..anyway i m quite excited to know what present will i get from pooi yee as she said that she had bought something for me.HAPPY!!haha..this is the first time receiving birthday present from her leh..but actually even a small card i receive i will feel very happy..i just care my position as a friend in their heart!!i admit i m a person like that ..i so care other”s opinon about me..anyway if think deeply , i have been living in this earth for 17 years!!! thanks god!!i think as a human being we should appreciate everyday that we own ..because life is so fragile..anyway most probably this is the last year i can celebrate my brithday with all my classmates ..after this year , we all may not have a chance to gather together ..sounds sad..but this is the fact..i really hope to have a memorable birthday this year..and my early birthday wish is to get wishes from.. To me, …wishes will be very enough to me..

ESther….